真实世界...虚拟的我

在这个真实的世界，虚拟的人不配生存
适者生存...不适者淘汰..这是我现在唯一的理念
从12月3日..凌晨12点16分开始
我知道我已经不再坚强了
但是...好多东西我不想失去
我告诉自己无论如何我一定要勇敢
失去多了...怕了
想逃避...却觉得那样的自己好没用
我认了...我接收了
我眼睛好痛...它好想休息
泪水要耗尽了...我好想可以快乐地笑
我每天都在找事情做...我不要做超人...
我想倒下...我想把自己累坏
我想要关心...疼爱...保护...依赖
我每天都在家走上走下..我自己在干嘛我都不知道
记忆力好像也差了...
太多东西顾虑了...我好烦！！！
我想营造一个虚拟的世界,,.让虚拟的我能在那里有存在的价值

i am born in the earth for die..
i am such a bastard or even lousy than that..
what can i do ??? can someone tell me..
i want CHANGE !!!
what is the most important in my life?
friends ? love ? family ? or money ?
i think i am not suit to gain all of that..
friends..will separate one day
love..i need it but i cant depend on it
family..i can't let them worry
money..i dun want be a human just look up for the money
i need WAT??
concern..happiness..regard..i really really need
i dun wan just born to wait for die !!! fucker..
i am going to mad
may GOD will bless me in my journey..
in my relationship with family, lover, and friends